A little over a year ago I joined this adult virtual world. Made up of virtual avatars and clubs and social gathering areas. I was bored. Of course too I was depressed and looking for friendship and online companionship. Married to a truck driver who had been physically abusive and controlling. Not to any extremes I was never hospitilized. None the less I was very unhappy and unstable. In the mean time, here I am on this virtual world, looking for love. Not necessarily to meet someone in real, but to build my self esteem with friends and possibly find my self worth again. I dated a few online men only in this virtual world not becoming real life situations just someone to hold virtually and lean on each other. None of them were truly right for me. Friendship? Yes that was okay but I couldnt go further then just a virtual relation. I was exclusively seeing this man from australia viturally that is. He was a great friend. However we should never have gone further then just a basic friendship as there was something missing. I knew this and cared for him as a friend ~~~~ Then one day while standing in the transit room of this virtual world talking to one of my girlfriends, This virtual man starts talking about his zaby (now these zabys are basically a virtual apartment of your own that you decorate and have for a private gathering place for loved ones or friends). He was trying to invite those that wanted to come see his zaby it was free and open for anyone to visit at anytime. People have some great talents in decorating and designing in there *including me lol*). Anyhow, I had started to giggle to myself thinking "What a way to catch girls" lol but then as soon as that though hit it flew right past me and although it was an avatar standing there...OMG instant magnetic draw. I had to know more about this person. Something about this man I knew I was meant to know him and be with him. Yet I had an virtual bf already. But I didnt care, I knew this was meant to be, I knew I have somehow known this man all my spiritual life. What was it? Is the feeling for real? Could this really be the one I am meant to spend my life with? I dont even know this man..How could I feel the strongest pull I have ever felt in my life? So I walked my avatar closer to him and had responded just generally in chat to his invitation and asked if he would be there to show me around. My back to him and talking to my girlfriend and my avatar facing her. My camera angle was not viewing my gf at all. I was drawn and focused to this man. Hoping he would stand there long enough to finish the conversation with my gf and get a person guided tour of this zaby (virtual apartment).~~~ Sure enough he had stayed there too. We proceded to his zaby. Our words mingled so delightful like spiritual butterflies dancing and twittering, touching at every level. No, not one bit of it was sexual or casual flirts. It was actual coversation about the crap from this virtual world and all its graphic issues and bugs, but it was our spirits that danced delightfully playing and discovering each other. It was the things not said with our mouths our words but it was our literal souls that instantly found a connection.~~~on the staircase and blue floor of the second level of his virtual apartment aftter somehow relaying some underline concern in the way i spoke, even though i know i didnt say this outright he heard me, he heard exactly what i was saying and returned the reply with " you and i, we are fine" My assurance of him was set and i knew i must leave the virtual bf I had. That this man who stood in my presense, who delighted my soul, and who on every level (even with totally different lifes)....this was the man that I had always been meant to be with it.~~~~We discuss this day often as we both felt the very same things. within one week, although he was patient for me to leave my friend because he knew i hated hurting anyone...I could not wait. We had been dancing together and a mutal friend of me and the other virtual bf had came by the zaby my love and i were in. I told him shit i must break he knows my bf, I dont want to hurt him. And OMG i started crying. It tore me so bad to tear away from this man I was meant to spend my life with. With that in my heart so deep. With in the next few days I left the other virtual bf so that i may grow and learn and be with the one I was truly meant to be with. Online we in our virtual world we started of as Sum1thinking and Sum1sLady and then as I grew in my own self awareness. He dubbed me Lady O'Dwyer and our virtual names became Mrs and Mr ODwyer. Hence the name i use anywhere i go now Lady O'Dwyer.
